Fail.

Yes, I Know It's Been A Few Days, Not Like Anyone Is Actually Reading This...

Anyway There's One Thing On My Mind, A Person Actually. We've All Had This Feeling Before I Know, I Just Can't Let Go. I've Tried, Multiple Times, And Each And Everytime Was Worse Then That Last. I Kind Of Wish He Could Just Tell Me "Look, It Isn't Going To Happen. I Don't Love You. Get Over Me, Move On, Forget The Past... Grab A Parachute And Jump Off The Sack" Then I Can Have Some Closure, But No. I'm Stuck In This Mindset That Somehow Everything Will Get Better And We Will Be Together Once More. Delusional, Probably. But Someone Once Told Me:

"If You Want Something, You Fight For It."

Plain And Simple. So Until He Tells Me To Forget About Him, I Will Continue On Loving Him. Or Whatever This Feeling Is Since Apparantly It Wasn't Love :(

And To Make Matters Worse, I Think He Has A New...Plaything. He Played With Her Before I Came Onto The Picture And I Think They're Back To It Again. And It's Hurts. Wasn't I Enough?
Wasn't I Worth Something? Did It Mean Anything?

There's Only One Song In My Head, Mostly Because The First Verse Explains How I Feel Right Now. The Song Is "Love" By Keysha Cole.


"I used to think that I wasn't fine enough
And I used to think that I wasn't wild enough
But I won't waste my time tryin' to figure out
Why you playing games, whats this all about
And I can't believe,
Your hurting me
I met your girl, what a difference
What you see in her
You ain't seen in me
But i guess it was all just make-believe

[Chorus]

Oh, Love
Never knew what I was missing
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found..... I found you......
Love
Never knew what I was missin'
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found..... I found you.....

[Verse 2]

Now you're gone, what am I gonna do
So empty
My heart, my soul can't go on
Go on without you....
My rainy days fade away when you,
Come around please tell me baby
Why you go so far away
Why you go...

[Chorus]

Love......
Never knew what I was missing
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found..... I found you......
Love
Never knew what I was missin'
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found..... I found you.....

Who would have known.
I'd find you.

Now you're gone, what am I gonna do
So empty
My heart, my soul can't go on
Go on baby without you....
Rainy days fade away
When you come around
Say your here to stay
With me boy
I don't want you to leave me
I need you.........

[Chorus]

I Just....Can't Get Over It. We Were So Happy, Then It Suddenly Ended. Seems Like It Was Only Me.

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A.Marie